Sometimes I feel like the world/people/whatever it may be just do not get it. And those are the times I wish I had little thought bubbles appear with what I really felt and thought in them. However, that's not possible. So I just rant on here. Which makes me seem negative all of the time. Fabulous. I should be asleep considering I have class at 8 am, but my brain won't turn off. No matter how hard I try, something pops up. Like little to do lists in my head. Along with random thoughts of other things I don't know how to deal with.
I miss my dad a whole lot lately. I don't really know why. Maybe it's because its fall and I associate this time of year with him getting sick. Maybe it's because I know I'll graduate soon and he won't be here to see that accomplishment. All of these people he knew wrote letters to our family after he died telling us how much he always spoke of his daughters and how smart they are and what they could achieve. And now, he doesn't get to see one of the biggest accomplishments. Maybe it's because I realize the absence of a lot of things lately. Or maybe it's because sometimes I still don't believe it happened. And maybe this all makes me a bit ridiculous, but at this point, I don't mind.
Britt, I know it's still hard for you and you don't talk about your dad much, but he still sees you. He sees everything you do and I know he's so proud of you. He may not physically be with you when you graduate, but he'll be there in spirit. In your heart. He's always watching over you. I know that sounds corny, but I know it's true. I know he's extremely proud of you and who you've become; what you've accomplished. I know I am. I'm proud to have you as my best friend. I've seen you grow and change since we were five, and I know he's even more proud than I am. And that's a lot.
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