The Only Dream

So, I thought I was going to be much better about keeping this up, but I'm not. Why? READING. And unnecessary drama. But mostly reading. I actually miss writing papers. In fact, I should be reading right now, but I'm typing this. I've always been held accountable for my reading, but not as much as I am this semester. Most of what I read is for Kinship & Marriage or Art History. K&M requires me to read and write a summary on each reading (there are often 5 or more readings, making up close to 100 pages for the week). EXTREMELY time consuming. And Art History requires me to read or else I will fail all of the quizzes, which occur almost every time I have class. I am glad my teachers want to ensure that I am doing the readings, but I miss the good old days of political science where the validation of whether I read or not was displayed through class discussion. At least then I would just look stupid if I had not read. So basically, I am spending this semester reading. Am I learning a lot? Yes. Am I extremely overwhelmed because I feel like I just cannot keep up? Another yes. I hate not feeling on top of things. I just need to make the Dean's List, again.

It's really just been a stressful first month of school. Being the co-president of something has also proved to be stressful. I am getting the most e-mails I have ever gotten in my life. I love it and this will be a great experience to talk about in interviews and great to have on my resume, but the pressure is on to reply to about 10 people at once. Organization is important. Plus, sometimes you realize that not everybody is as passionate about something as you. I mean I could sit in a room for hours discussing the importance of voting and listening to senators rant and rave and think of effective grassroots strategies and never get bored. But then there are some people that are like "Uh, this meeting was an hour? That's way too long" To which, I understand...to an extent. We are college students, we have things to do, people to socialize with. But, don't you join something because you're passionate about it? Then again, nowadays a lot of people join things just to put it on their resumes. And people at Gustavus are OVER involved. Whatever. Blasphemy. (I like that word a lot)

I am glad it is October though. I think I have always had good Octobers. Great, I probably just jinxed that. But October at Gustavus means Nobel and Fall Break. And midterms too. But we don't want to think about those quite yet. I could really use both of those breaks from class right about now. Especially since being sick made me feel super behind in everything. Except I'm super freaked out at the speed of the school year. I do not even want to begin to think about it. I am very excited for life after college, but simultaneously am trying to get everything I can out of my senior year. It does cost over 40Gs to go here, after all. Shoot. It's 1 am and I still have 4 articles (26 pages) to read and write about. And I have an 8 am class. Why do I do this to myself? Sigh. I see a long nap in my near future.